Made papaya salad at 1am… Sorry
The garage lighting did me good lol
tim is of the essence, and I’m thankful for your your friendship.
"Why you keep saying love when you don’t know what that is."
Your ex only hit you when you doing well
If michelle vo is reading this, I love you.
Clutch and the throttle.
Shin ramyun with spam and a poached egg. #ramen #spicylevel10 #nongshim #shinramyun #ramen
I feel like we are such an old couple even the homie was like “is this what you guys do? come home from work and cook, and you wait for him to get home, and just chill”. What do you think? Lol. Anyway, we stayed up all night talking after I made dinner for us. First we showered together, ate and then chilled. I forgot how we started talking. We threw on a boring ass movie I rented from Redbox, I looked at his facial hair, and started plucking those along with his eyebrows. I looked closely at his nostrils and decided to clean those too. Gross I know right? Lol, he sneezed 10 times, it was literally the cutest thing and most disgusting I’ve ever seen -him. I was done and finally decided to focus on the movie for a bit and this fool started wiggling his toes and fingers making whining baby noises to let me know he wants to cut his nails. That’s when we started conversing.
We have this thing, it’s sorta weird. Once in a while like a few months he will stop, grab my phone and look through everything he wants and if he has a questions he will ask me to clarify. It’s not technically snooping. It’s our way of checking up on each other. I borrow his phone sometimes and I’ll tell him I’m going to look at his stuff real quick and he usually shrugs and says go ahead. So he checked my phone when I was doing his nails..He told me he forgot to check my emails and my recent contacts… Lol I was kinda surprised he brought up emails. I don’t have anything to hide and neither does he. He’s told me I’m probably the most honest girl he’s been with and I think the same for him.
He all of a sudden said … “You know last time I checked my ex’s emails on the ipad I bought her, I found out some shit I didn’t want to see”. BAM, our 3 hour conversation started. I asked him if he wanted to talk about it. I asked “come, sit here and tell me about it”. He ended up telling me that he just had a feeling she was messing with his best friend but he wanted to brush it off, and even told her, if she stops doing what she does, he’ll forgive her and they can work things out. But those emails said stuff like “when you guys break up we can be together” between his best friend and his gf at the time. So when he was done telling me his story, he only found spam and work emails. I like that feeling no lie. If he checks, I want both of us to walk out confident in each other, trusting each other you know?
Then we went about talking about why we act the way we act because of our exs. I told him, I fucked up and kinda did what she did. but in a different way. I remember when Brandon and I were trying to work things out, but it was towards the end of our first break up, I was talking to Ant already. There was this one time we were at the dinner table and Brandon wanted to talk to about “us” and work things out. But I was too busy being a fake ass bitch, messaging Ant right in front of him, saying shit like “I don’t wanna be here right now” . Ant would reply “leave and come see me?” and I would say I couldn’t because I’m stuck talking to Brandon about bullshit right in front of his face. I walked away from my phone for a second and Brandon would check my messages (every second of the day) and he showed me my own phone with that look of betrayal on his face. I felt bad, telling Niron about the story. I told him, I fucked up, and I made mistakes I’m not proud of either.
Niron told me how he found out his first ex cheated on him was through his sister in law’s phone. His brother and sis in law knew his girl cheated on him but never told him, or have his back. I told him that’s weird because to me, he’s the furthest thing from clingy. Cause when I was Brandon it was nonstop arguments over his insecurities, and honestly my actions weren’t helping - going out, neglecting him, partying, getting fucked up. But now that I’m with him, he never ever snoops through my stuff or nags me with questions. He told me he’s made changes, but he never was the insecure type to do all that, he only does it when he has a gut feeling somethings up. I told him about how it felt when I met him after all the shit I went through with Brandon. I was just so blessed to have a good guy after a horrible relationship. He agreed and said the same. I told him more specifically why I still talk to one of my good friend Movin.
Though he rather me not have any contact with someone I used to have a thing with… I explained to him the events between me and Movin that makes him exceptional. How he was one of the best friend’s I’d ever have. He’d always have my back and when I couldn’t stand being in the same apartment with Brandon kissing on his new gf when I was still living there, paying rent, and never gave up on him yet.. Movin would be there and talk me through probably killing myself. I had no car, no friends, was in a strange city, all of which I own up to my own decisions. He found me a new house, took me to work when I missed my bus.. But even through all that when we actually started “trying” to get to know each other as more than friends… I told Niron, I felt like I was only there to hear him through his problems with his ex…. I felt like a second option up until I met Niron. We’d both talk to other guys and girls while hanging out still, and doing our own thing, but eventually I was the one that asked “is there going anywhere, I mean… what are we”. He never gave me a solid answer. I was always one of those “we’ll see, we’re just going with the flow”. Finally when I met someone that stopped me on my tracks and swept me off my feet,my best friend really wanted to make me his gf. I didn’t want to wait around anymore for something that was a maybe. When honestly I think I just met my Definitely.
My best friend was upset.. But what was I supposed to do, I began falling for you know who. Niron sorta stayed quiet the entire time I was telling the story. Which is amazing given that he always sighs and asks me to get to the point. He listened and then he was curious… LOL. He never bothered to ask me how many guys I’ve slept with and here he was sitting there tracking down my stories and putting things together and being curious about me. It was cute. We were like two strangers getting to know each other again, laughing flirting and telling sad stories. We finally stopped talking after we blabbled from 9:30-midnight. We turned off the TV and lights and cuddled. But let me tell you - We didnt sleep until almost 2 AM…. ahahaha. It was a very good night. Trust that.
He texted me a whole bunch of stuff this morning at work. Made me love him more than I already do. He made me promise all these sweet nonsense, and told me how much I meant to him. :) Idk. I’m going back to work now. I should not be doing all this at work…. oh well
I ain’t gonna lie, this weeeeeeek has been amazing. In ways you don’t even know. My man is doing it righhhhhht, ;)
Homemade vietnamese yellow curry #curry #vietnamesecurry #yellowcurry #chickencurry #curryandrice